For the longest time, I associated the word fitness with the number on the scale. I was so zoned in to that number that I was only trying to be fit to see that number go down. It wasn’t until more recently that I’ve realized, fitness isn’t a number on the scale or even the number on my jeans. It’s the lifestyle and a feeling of health. It’s the energy I feel without coffee, the absence of bloat, it’s the strength I feel when biking up a hill. Fitness is a lifestyle and a lifestyle I’m ready to really implement and to practice. I want all those things I mentioned above and descending numbers on the scale and inches off my waist is just the icing on the cake. Fitness has become a big part of my life this year and is going to continue to be so I’m going to be sharing it more with you here on the blog!

To say I’ve struggled with my fitness lifestyle, post twins, would be an understatement. There are weeks and months I go where I feel so on top of it. I’m fit and healthy and I feel it, but then something happens, whatever it may be… sick kiddos, overworked husband, slammed at work… whatever it is, it completely throws me for a loop and I fall off the track again. It’s sort of a viscous cycle that I go through… get healthy, feel good, something goes wrong, lose track, get off the wagon, be unhealthy, feel bad, then get motivated to get healthy again. It’s unhealthy to constantly be on this cycle.

After I took these pictures, my first thought was “wow, I can’t believe I’m going to post these” because I just don’t feel like I look good and I knew when I was taking these pictures that I didn’t feel confident. I carry weight in my thighs, butt and arms. I’m currently not toned and there’s an extra layer of fat and a belly roll that I’m not sure where it came from. I try to stay authentic and real on here and I know so many of you probably feel the same way.

Losing weight and focusing on fitness post baby is hard. I’m constantly tired and it feels like every week there’s some reason that pops up that allows me to make an excuse. I’m an emotional eater and a binger so if I have a hard day with the kids or in business, I turn to chocolate and food. There are also days where I simply am so busy that I forget to eat which results in me binging the second I get the chance. Both bad habits are not going to help me achieve my goals and then I just end up feeling disappointed with myself afterwards.

One of my goals this new year is to really focus on my fitness so I’m kicking off with a 6 week long program called ‘Faster Way to Fat Loss’, starting today! I’m so excited to get this going and really set myself up for success. This program makes tracking what I eat easy and helps me set fitness goals for where I want to be in 6 weeks, 8 weeks, the next year. I’m really ready to change my lifestyle and get back my energy and feel healthy again.

I read that it takes 21 days to really create a habit! Today is Day 1 of my fitness focus! My ultimate goal is to create better eating habits for myself and feel better in my jeans and more comfortable in my clothes, especially in a swimsuit or a sports bra and leggings. I’ll update you all along the way so if you want to follow along on Instagram and here, I’ll be creating a highlight tab (top of instagram profile) where you can see fitness tips that are helping me.

I would love to have some of you join me in this journey too! It’s not too late to get started! Or if you’re like me and you want to see something be successful first, then wait until the next round, but I can promise, I’ve already seen subtle changes in just the first week of prep week and I can’t wait to share more with you!